Unbalenced Friendships

I know most if not all of u have felt what im goin through right now... So I have this friend who one minute seems to really care about me, but the next its like she wouldn't care if I died! (or at least thats how it seems to me) Some people would rather spend time with my sister (no offense sis) and my niece (Donna) than me. Little do these ppl know my sister is coming as well and so is Donna. Either way if these people love my family so much, they would have had to know me to know them, but i guess all that is just out the window for whatever reason now! I try not to let it bother me but some how it still gets to me. The fact of the matter is when i was in need she didn't help me, but left me stranded, or what about the little thing where girls like to put boys before friends who were there long before the boy(s) were. I have struggled not to b that type of friend for a while, but i have a few who do it to me...EVEN ON MY BIRTHDAY! When boys act a fool and break hearts its those true friends you still have to lean on but if you aren't bein that type of friend to them, all your gonna end up with is a wall and a pillow! I have a feeling that ppl are going to assume im talkin bout them, but if this blog makes you wonder if its you, ask yourself IS IT U??? I also have a feeling that all my caring, supportive friends who read this blog will make my Sweet 16 the greatest ever! So no longer will i get upset at who can't, won't, or don't give a damn about my birthday or what im doin for it cuz ima have fun n do SiSi anyway and its their loss that they wont get to b part of the fun! LOL This time its about me, my day, & NOBODY, yes i did say NOBODY can mess this up 4 me

SiSi's Daily Word For: 12-5-08

SiSi's Daily Word for today is: Learn to depend on you! Stop depending on other people, but rather work in conjuction with positive people to make you a stronger person! When you learn to not only depend on yourself, but also to encourage yourself. Its true that you have to speak over yourself when times get hard. The only other person who can truly promise not to hurt you is God and so often we forget that he's always there. Today if nothin else just stop for a moment and thank God for letting you see today because you've never seen it before nor will you ever see it again. Beyonce had it close to perfect when she told us that all we have in the end is us; great friends are blessings., and should not b used as crutches nor walkers! So with that today there are 2 songz i say you must hear 1.) ENCOURAGE YOURSELF (gospel version) & 2.) BEYONCE ME,MYSELF, &I. Have a wonderful day, dress warm, and check back for tomorrow's daily word & song!

~SiSi

Today's Daily Word from SiSi...12-4-08

Today's word is...Never let other people affect your mood, attitude, and most of all your actions. people try to tick you off to make you act a certain way and if you get mad and react to them ur only giving them what they want! Rather you should b the bigger person and simply hold your peace until you can vent to a friend, boyfriend, etc. Always stay in control because once you give them control over you by giving in to them you are not only making them b right, but also ur guranteed to act in a way that will not have a good turn out simply because u will b acting on pure anger stemmed from your particular type of temper. So remember to keep control and b bigger and better than your enemies! Pray for them, but also dont let them have the upper hand! Stay strong and have a great day! stay readin for tomorrow's word and now im starting a new thing SiSi's Daily Song...So today's song is Tu-Pac "Thug Mansions"

~SiSi's Daily Word~

Today's daily word is... If you love someone tell that person(people) that you love them each and everyday that Gos allows you to spend on this Earth. People dont last forever, but memories do so cherish the time you have with family and friends! Never take the people you love for granted because its so true that you will never know how much they really meant to you until they are gone. Cherish them now so that when they are no longer with you your heart stil holds all the joy and happiness they brought to your life! Stay happy, stay smilin and remember to ALWAYS live life to the fulest no matter what cuz today could be your last day!

Stay readin for tomorrow's daily word...

~SiSi

~burn my bestie~

So you thought u was my bestie...NOT you lied about havin gum when you know i wanted some gum! You even went so far as to bring my new bestie into the situation by making him play along with you little plan! My new bestie M**** even put not having gum on his relationship! Who would lie about that? However you W***** on the other hand so called "dont put things on her!" There once was a song that said: "u a liar, a cheater, a deceiver, heartbreaker, and wont let you back in my life..." This is where our friendship ends...YES over a piece of gum lol because its the simple fact that you lied about it! B-U-R-N!!!! W*****!!!!!!!!

~SiSi

Me & J...what else is there 2 say?!?!?!?!

I just dont know about u...about us. One minute we're great n i couldn't b happier, only 20 secs later u make all that go away. yea its true your love is one in a million but sometimes its more than i think im ready for. U and I both know i love u more than i ever thought i could love a person n i know u feel that 2 but are you willing to give up all the nonsense to be with me?!?! Thats a question i ask you almost everyday and ive been asking that since the day we got together n you answer with "I already have!" If this is your answer then y am i left with so many lonely nights, nights without hearin your voice, im forced to go to court days for u for things u say "aren't your fault, im made to sit at home n worry when i will see you again if ever, but y??!?!?! If you say you've given up all this then y do i feel so empty on so many different occassions? Dont get me wrong you have proven to b honest, loyal, compassionate, real, just the picture perfect guy and more than i could have ever imagined or asked for, but this flaw is also more than i could have ever dreamed about as well! Our love can outweigh many things, but im ot sure about how much of this my already tattered and bruised heart can take after all, you've seen the scars n you even said yourself i dont need anymore of them n i dont deserve anymore of em so y do i feel like that was the first thing you ever said to me that wasn't true? Was it true, do you even know if it was true? You call me Mrs. Harris but what does that really entail? Does that mean that im n for an entire lifetime of what I, no we are going through right now? Im not so sure if thats what i want? Since we were little we have always been all about each other i mean ive known you since i was 6 years old n you have changed so much since we were little but was it for the better or in the long run for the worst? The love i have and always will have for you will never change, but you really are puttin me through a lot right now. i know you feel it to but your temper and all the anger that you have built up inside of you, you have to find a way to let that out, cuz if you dont....i dont even want to know what could hapen to us. I would love to do nothing more than to b Mrs. Harris but for the first time in my life it seems like a pipe dream, one of those dreams you have for a night, but when you wake up u realize it will never happen. i want us to always b as close as we always have been, even now you tell me when things happen, but only after you've reacted instead of before! You say i am your best friend, but best friends are supossed 2 talk about everything and i know we talk about almost everything, but seeing what we're going throug now, almost just isn't enough anymore! We fit so picture perfect is what everyone around us says, but behind closed doors im fightin with both myself and you! I dont know whether to b there 4 you because i know ur hurtin so bad, or b mad at u cuz ur hurtin me so bad?!?! I pray for you more than i pray for myself, I pray for us everyday but it just seems like u stopped prayin altogether. You say you need me and i tell you all the time im right here all you have 2 do is trust me n let your gard and your pride down n just let our love outweigh all the bad right now! You refuse to just step out on faith, so far everytime you've fallen i've been there 2 pick you up, so y not this time? I haven't changed and neither has my love! I just hope that we can get us together and fully/truly happy again cuz face it, when ur hurt im hurt!

J...Baby i know you think im bein really hard on you about the lifestyle you live and the things you do but its for 2 reasons, the first bein im scared 2 lose you cuz you have been with me so long im afraid to experience life without u and the second being i know you are a great person and i see your potential and what type of girlfriend would I be if i just let you stay where ur at? I know ur gonna read this which is y i wrote this part directly to you...i just need you to b all that i know you can be and all that i know you want to b I love you n u know that MUAH!

~SiSi

Im so sick of school & da drama it brings about

FIRST-, if we all have 2 b n da same place 5 days a week y make it more stressful on ourselves not 2 mention others by creating unneccesary drama 2 da situation...Whats da point???
SECOND-Why start stuff with people you only have a tad bit more time with??? Why not cherish the time so it goes by faster???
THIRD- Even if you dont always start the drama ur ust as guilty if yo name always in it! Dat means u doin da most!
Fourth n Finally- Who do u think really cares about your immaturiy towards drama...Come on we are juniors and this ish is a bunch of childish nonsense that only exists because we let it!!

What SiSi Thinks is... That everyone should be who you are, be you no mattaer what n dont worry about who doesn't like u cuz they not helpin your llife any, cherish the friends you do have by not bringing them drama that may push them away, and most importantly never blame others for anything ur not willing to get up off yo but n fix yourself i.e. DRAMA
~SiSi